I never thought chasing you would lead me to unknown paths. I followed your footprints on the sand but got lost when the waves erased those marks you left behind. The footprints were there giving me some hope that I’m not lost behind your back, but as time went by the waves erased every hope I built just to reach your back. It’s like chasing the sunset until its beauty fades when night falls into spaces.
Chasing you was like playing a card game, sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. And I lost the game and luck was not at my side. Though I’m winning in the beginning but in the end my luck was not enough to make you stay, to make you come back. I lost the game as I lost you.
They said if you want someone to be yours, you must exert efforts to show how much they mean to you. I did the same thing, I followed you wherever you go. I followed you everywhere not knowing my presence would not bother you. You don’t recognize my presence. You’re cold as ice and you’re totally numb to feel that I’m around.
I chased for your love every night and day. I followed you hoping to get another shot for a second chance but got failed. I was a hopeless romantic trying everything to make you comeback into my arms. I turned to be a beggar begging for the love that was unreal in the first place. I begged for the love I don’t deserve because it was a one sided love. I’d still love you despite the hurtful truth that blasted in front of me. Yes I do.
Until one day I saw you with someone else. I saw happiness in your face when you’re with him. The smile on your lips was priceless and I never seen that before. You’re indeed in love with him the way you stared at his eyes. You deserve to be happy and to be loved anyway.
Chasing you was like finding the sun in the midst of midnight. I don’t deserve this though it was my mistake to follow you until the end of boundaries. I don’t regret the day I started loving you but it should end here. My chasing journey with you has come to its end. And my journey finding myself begins with moving on in my life. The road towards finding self love and finding peace deep within my heart and soul isn’t easy. But I know one day I’ll be able to achieve it when time and fate allow this so.