Here I am trying to escape what I can’t undo. I want to run away and never look back. Looking for someone or something to hide. It might be too late to look back but I can’t run away that easily. Remembering those mistakes I had done unto you slowly kills me from time to time.
I wish I could undo those moments and take time with me to change the whole setting but it was already done. Regrets always come at the end and it’s true. My words find its way at above and I can’t hold back those words from piercing your heart into pieces. Words that burn your soul in the gates of hell. Words that drown you in the deepness of the ocean. Words that drag you in the darkest underground.
I’m sorry for hurting you this way. I don’t mean to do that, I swear. I love you but I forget to respect your feelings as a woman. I’m really sorry for what I’ve done. I am carried away by my emotions when you told me nothing special between us when we sat under the sky full of stars and kissed that night. I was hurt hearing those words from you but I can’t blame you for feeling that way.
Your dark past still hunts you and you’re not yet ready to let go of that thing. I’m sorry I was a little bit impatient by pushing you to feel the same way with mine. I’m sorry if I pushed you even if you’re not ready and confused. My immaturity and lack of sense of thought drag me in my own destruction.
I know I can’t erase the pain within your heart that easily. I hurt you and I can’t blame you for hating me this way. I can’t blame you if you push me away from your life. Those chances I built within your heart slowly dies as you told me to back out.
How I wish I could rewrite the stars but I can’t. I hope it’s not too late for us to be okay again. I hope it’s not the end between us. I know you never want to see me even the glimpse of my shadow. I know we can’t go back to the way before, but still hopeful that we’d still be friends.
I’m hoping that things will get better soon, not for now but time will tell. But all I can do right now is to hope and pray. Still hoping, still hopeful.